Buildings, planes, explosions, awe
Glass and metal falling to the floor
Screams crying out in rashes of despair
Paper floating aimlessly
Bodies falling with intention
Sirens, smoke, fire, dust, death
Crying, running, bleeding, lost, broken
Watching through split fingers, mouth agape
Heart pounding, heart stopping, heart breaking
Schools, President, Homeland Security, Green Eggs and Ham
Unity, division, speculation, retaliation
Lies, truth, secrets, propaganda
Borders, culture, separation, divides
Mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters
Aunts, uncles, nieces, nephews
Husbands, wives, partners, kin
Children, cousins, in-laws, friends
Hospitals, morgues, funerals, memorials
News, magazines, pictures, video
Sadness, anger, confusion, dismay
God, Bible, Allah, Quran
Religion, free will, belief, revolt
Flags, stickers, magnets, banners
War, death, control, chaos...Yes, I remember.

And I will NEVER forget.

Oh WOW! jimjam incredible!! but I indeed do remember here is where I was doing this insanity:


I was actually very sick in the hospital, It was my first year of college, I woke up very early just throwing my guts out, high fever, vertigo all man it was bad! I couldn't even stand up my mom was so worried that she rushed me to the emergency room and I collapsed in the elevator. My mom was so nervous and scared that she called my dad at work to come to the hospital. We didn't know what was going on until he broke the news over the phone to my mother. All I remember hearing him say over and over was "It's a done deal now we going to war" "WE GOING TO WAR"

I was still very incoherrent so I didn't understand what was going on and that's when the nurses got me a wheelchair and rolled me to front desk that's when I saw every doctor, nurse, visitor and some patients just staring up at the T.V. It was so eerie Shocked it was like they just stopped doing whatever they was doing and just dropped everything to see what was going on. They were frozen and so was I. Felt like I was in one of those horrible end of the world or natural disaster movies.

Same thing happen to me when Haiti Earthquake happened in the hospital sick! every time a major calamity happens I get very very very sick the night before or the same day. Both times the doctor couldn't find anything wrong with me no virus, flu or disease very strange. I also had a dream the night before of a tsunami when the Indonesia Tsunami hit.

Sad very sad and now I'm looking how beautiful today is on September 11, 2010 I thought there was never going to be a day like today again especially on this date. Now 9 yrs later all I can do is remember EVERYTHING! every little piece of the past, so forgetting could never be a option even on a sunny sky blue day like today.

Wow Orb Queen...you are very psychically empathic - connected. I bet there are others that experience something very similar...have you ever researched it?

A few days ago I woke in the night (I think it was Sept 9) from some scenes running through my mind of a catastrophy. I was utterly startled and my first thought was - is it Sept 11? I just immediately made that connection when conscious for some reason. Anyway, I think the tragedy and the HEAPS of people it affected has created something in the etheric that keeps it strong.

Last year I wrote this in my journal:

Thu 10 Sep 09

I felt death near me last night in various forms, like blow flies and the 9-11 tragedy (ooo, I just noticed that tomorrow is the 9-11 anniversary). I allowed death to be near me and overlap me...about 15%. I was not afraid, but it is a process of acclimation.

Wow OQ, I love that you're so empathic. I wish I was. Although you probably see it as a curse don't you. Poor thing, having to go through all that physical stuff.

I'm sorry that the world seems to go to Hell in a hand basket when you're in the hospital.

Here's to wishing you no empathic illness this year!

I agree 100% Alisa




I love how intuitive you are, I just knew that you would have something great to share on this subject. Thanks for sharing your experience.

hey guys just snuck away from all my packing for a little bit LOL!

Alisa, I never researched it but, always thought it was due to me being emphatic but it only happens when it's a mass amount of people. I never get these feelings on a individual basis so I can't read people emotions like most emphats.

WOW what a journal entry you are so intuned! just reading this I can feel through the computer that you have grown considerably more spiritual, it's radiating from you . I just can feel it can you tell yourself? any new eye openers?

JJ, ha lol! no I don't see it as a curse since it only happens on a mass scale calamity sorry to say. But I heard of many people who have to deal with it all the time! like I said earlier I'm not one of those who can suck on other peoples emotions and feelings and thank goodness for that too LOL! I don't think I can live like that.

I know for most of them they probably would consider it a curse especially since many of them are always ill from it. Yea I know every time I whine up in the hospital I'm like all no what's happening now ugh!!! I'm surprised I didn't get like that when Katrina happened, but I assume it's because I was physically involved with it. Yeah home destroyed and all but, luckily I wasn't stranded like those poor souls I got out! don't know why I was so insistent on leaving because my family never never never leaves for anything!!!!! and they never even left before for any hurricane. I was the one to convince them and my fiance and his family!! just had a feeling just knew something wasn't right.

Thanks for the kind comments about my journal Jaim and OQ.

It is fascinating Orbie, how you feel those massive events and also how you didn't get sick with Katrina (the event you experienced firsthand). It does seem to make sense though.

Hope the packing is going well.

As for the spiritual growth for me, I think it is a continuing thing that is escalating...I think it is for you, too, isn't it? I have dreams every so often that show me how far I have come and how far I have to go to reach the main goalpost, whatever that may be. And I had such a dream last night. It makes such sense when I am asleep or altered. Then as I wake and get into my day, it makes less sense. It was like I knew I had let go more a bit more from the spirit mother and father (moved away from them further). Maybe it is an analogy like growing up and moving out of the house.

I'm getting better at accepting my own intuition, too. The other night, a woman called me who wanted to take one of my puppies. I liked her so much and was really ready to have one less dog in this house. As we finished the call, she told me she knew she'd have a hard time sleeping as she was so excited to get her new baby (dog). But about an hour after I hung up the phone I got this blank feeling about it. It was almost like I could see a point in the future (the next day) where she was going to come and it was empty. It was as if a probability still in flux, but I could feel it becoming more likely and more firm she would not come.

The next morning I had a vague awareness that she definitely would not be coming though I had no idea why. I didn't even get anything ready for her nor prepare the puppy. Around they time she was supposed to come over, her husband called and said they couldn't make it. Their grown daughter had gone into the hospital the night before with abdominal pains and this was turning out to be a bad week for them as they would likely have to spend the week helping her daughter.

Anyway, just thought I'd share that example of intuition. A bit off the topic though, sorry.