One of Chris's recent "photos from the canal" looked like Pennywise to me ( click to see her photo).





And that brought up a synchronicity for me because I had recently dreamed of this clown and OMJ had used the pic below as an avatar recently.





Which came first the chicken or the egg, I don't know for sure. But I think I saw OMJ's pic first which may have prompted my dream. But anyway, here is the dream in form of a chat with OMJ (Jim). I start by describing my first thoughts when I woke that morning:

(07:49:37 AM) Alisa: I got the name Finwe and saw the clown pic you sometimes use and at about the same time I saw a huge wolf eye.
(07:50:03 AM) Alisa: I felt this was the being communicating with me. And it wasn't until I woke up and thought about it for a minute that I realized -- Hey, that's all about Jim!
(07:50:15 AM) Jim: Wow. cool o.o
(07:51:09 AM) Alisa: In the dream, it was like a mix of some time periods. Seems some were a hundred or two years ago. It was a flowing, fast paced story line (if you can call it a story line). Maybe more like a stream of related images. Anyway,
(07:52:50 AM) Alisa: Anyway, I was viewing this man sitting in an office. It seemed set not quite in the present. Anyway, looking at this man when suddenly I see a small spray hit him like a bit of water. But it is blood.
(07:54:02 AM) Jim: Ooer. o.o
(07:54:14 AM) Alisa: As I keep looking at him, the spray gets larger/more. And his eyes widen in shock. I realize he is somehow being murdered and I turn around to see the clown. But he looks very scary (welll, he does anyway, doesn't he) and somewhat alien.
(07:54:41 AM) Jim: Lol! freaky
(07:54:45 AM) Alisa: Then I see a woman who also works in the office. She is a black woman. The clown is approaching her. (I have this strange multi-perspective, multi-character things going on).
(07:55:49 AM) Alisa: She cottons on just before the clown is about to do her in and she stabs him through the hand with a long thin skewer thing. It goes through his white gloved hand. But his hands aren't quite like human, more thick like a cartoon hand drawing (don't know what that has to do with anything... anyway...)
(07:57:08 AM) Alisa: So the clown looks only very slightly surprised at the skewer thing and yet not at all
(07:58:19 AM) Alisa: put off. He just makes quick work of twisting her head in the middle like an egg-shaped egg timer and her eyes are facing at a 45 degree angle to her jaw. If that makes sense. And then it is like he puts it on display, like a freaky science thing under glass.
(07:58:32 AM) Alisa: He fears nothing and I get the idea that nothing can stop him.
(07:58:44 AM) Jim: weird. o.o
(07:59:19 AM) Alisa: I can't remember all the rest enough to make a coherent story of it, but that was around when I woke up and saw the large wolf eye and then got the Finwe name. And I felt a powerful entity was showing me these things and that it was revealing my fear to me.
(07:59:39 AM) Jim: And what was your fear?
(08:00:20 AM) Alisa: As I got up and make coffee, etc., I noticed the song in my head "run away, run away from the pain..." by Aerosmith (Janey's got a gun song). I don't really like the song or group, but messages come to me in any form of music. Oh, and what was the fear? That is a good question. I have been asking
(08:01:25 AM) Alisa: for help lately with some of my deep-seated problems. And I believe the answer is that many of my problems are my way of running away from pain and fear of pain. The dream clown represented fear, slaughter and amusement at slaughter (no mercy). This must be my fear. I mean this generalized.
(08:01:46 AM) Jim: Aah
(08:01:53 AM) Jim: the fear of inhumanality
(08:02:11 AM) Alisa: Could be culmination of past life things, etc. And even knowing this does not solve my problems. And Yes, good point, fear of inhumanity. And you are so wise.
(08:02:40 AM) Alisa: Oh, and I think that the spirit helping me was you. Or it seems so.
(08:03:00 AM) Jim: As *spirit* is always commenting on things I read and do, that I question anyway,
(08:03:12 AM) Jim: maybe you feel your drifting away from your humanity, from your human form,
(08:03:26 AM) Jim: and subcontiously fear what may lay ahead for you, out of humanity.
(08:03:35 AM) Alisa: OMG. Wow.
(08:03:49 AM) Jim: I suppose the clown would represent inhumanity. Slaughtering, enjoyment of it ect.
(08:03:55 AM) Alisa: Yes.
(08:04:03 AM) Jim: and the office and people would represent the human enviroment you feel so enclosed by
(08:04:15 AM) Jim: or, unable to escape
(08:04:16 AM) Alisa: Are you a psychiatrist on the side or something?
(08:04:22 AM) Jim: Lol
(08:04:26 AM) Jim: maybe?
(08:04:45 AM) Alisa: Excellent ideas and interps. And I think they are accurate. And they have opened a new path for me to think about. I appreciate it very much.