I am going to laberate on this.
Because i believe in a man Jesus Christ and the Foundations to how man must live. I try, and I know I fall very short of the goal mark. amongst all this Issues I have, My thoughts somehow,sometimes leads to the thinking of what Christ tried to set out for mankind.
I question so much, to how and why, and only my human thoughts are heard.
I have that twig out of my eye,(probably why i see this differently) others have a forrest in theirs.
Yet I am still human, my weakness is this attitude,my anger and my bitterness and Hate for these Scums that lie,that are hypocrites,that deceive,that are fakes,two timers. Murderers/Abusers all this stirs in me. Yet I have Hurt No One, No One, Only in words, my sarcasm as become my walls, and that sarcasm will cut you. to the point of Hate to me.
So Be It.
Take away DOCS. and I am a Very good man, with very good values,for the woman of my life and the family.
These are the qualities of me,Before DOCS killed my life, These are the Qualities of me, That attracted the partner to my life.

My eldest sons mother I was with her 15 odd years. Young/stupid made heaps of mistakes with her,I wanted more children,she couldnt, we try and try and try.took tests, I loved her very much,I was selfish and wanted more.
And when I did, They die on me, They are taking away from me, I am punished every day is some way. as much as Christ is in my heart and soul.My sarcasm Beams Out to protect me.
I had a chance again, So I thought, started a new life in a new place, yet that past follows and it caught me and killed me inside again, and taking yet again,others with it.

a 100 ways to say No, Yet why say yes in the beginning, a 100 ways of hate, Yet, why say yes,when asked for the commitment, Say yes.???. for what reason, to waste a yr for nothing.

Docs have that same attitude , a 100 ways to kill you, yet cant say Yes, I/we got it wrong.

From this. I can now see, Why men get more abused from DOCS female workers, They hate just as much as the partner I had. and all they can do is make sure you never get heard of the truth of you.add lies of you,Fabricate,deceive others to their thinking. from DOCS actions of personal vengeance is no different to what I got from a Partner.

I know who I am, You dont, Cos you DOCS wont spend time with me, as a Partner once did.