Thank you for the feedback, CyberPearl! The Impersonal Life is summarizing what I've learned about the nature of my existence thus far and then some. I am not finished reading all of it. It is stretching my mind like an advanced class of mental yoga so I am allowing some breaks to assimilate.

Philosophy books, eh? I can see that you and I are cut from the same spirit cloth. I also am looking for the ultimate meaning behind life. I am less and less content just existing without knowing the fullness of the purpose.

And you really grabbed my attention with your sentence about characteristics of a Satanist. I have been led time and time again to Luciferianism writings. They synchronize with my beliefs. (Lucifer actually means Light-Bringer in Latin and is a name for the Morning Star - Venus).

I have had many spiritual experiences explaining the juxtaposition of Lucifer and Christ and how they are yin and yang. These fill pages and pages of my journal.

Out of interest, here's an interesting, short article Is Jesus Lucifer? And if you'd like to give a link to the LaVey article, I'd be interested.