I can relate to what you are saying. I experience frustration, too. I love to explore all the possibilities and listen to all prophets (all points of view) including those of the bible, and particularly those prophecies that resonate with me and my own prophecies I've received.

It is fear that makes it hard to be open to the growing evidence of the end-time/rebirth prophecies. Fear of change. As modern humans we cling to life and shun death as if one is good and one is bad. It has become a part of our cultural existence to fear death and stave it off at all costs, keeping people alive and even forcing them to receive treatment and life-support even if they don't want it, let alone provide compassionate assistance for those suffering and wishing to end their life cycle.

It resonates with polarizing light and darkness rather than integrating them into the whole that they are, favoring one over the other with severity.

To flow with divine will is to accept whatever is in store as determined by something much larger than the self. Fighting it out of fear and a desire to control won't change what one is destined to experience in their cycle, but it does create lots of pain and trauma.

I'm not saying that I do not experience any of this fear myself, because I do. It is imbued in us early on through transference of the collective fear. Though as each individual challenges and conquers this fear, they lift the overall collective fear of death somewhat. Eventually a critical mass will occur in which a large enough majority overcome the fear, or embrace a new belief, so that it is no longer a seeming condition of "life" to fear death.

But when you pioneer new concepts and beliefs that separate you from the collective belief system, it can feel very alienating. It makes you long to connect with another that sees things as you do so you will not feel so alone. Though we are all truly connected to each other, this physical experience of "life" as separate humans is already an exploration of intense individuality. When you go against the flow of the whole to embrace new (and more harmonious) concepts, it seems to segregate you even further.

As in the video where 9Nania says that she knows the angel told her that the upcoming earth changes will be joyous and that people should not fear, she can't smile. It is a burden to know one thing (that this is all good and part of a larger wondrous cycle) and to be human and steeped in the fear of the whole. I also have been assured of the celebration and great joy that awaits us as we finish this grand cycle, but I also feel weary and find it hard to smile at times. I could totally relate to her.

I feel like I am in waiting mode, circling like a plane waiting for a turn to land on the runway. Nothing much interests me (aside from simple daily pleasures like eating, sleeping, watching TV). Some fear still resides in me of death and the unknown, but it diminishes a bit more each day and each time I express myself as I am doing here. I know things are coming to a head but it is not there yet. And I have to remember that this too is an opportunity to continue to seek balance and peace in the eternal pursuit of progression and growth, even though I feel I am waiting. Because I must not forget that all there is, is "now".

My intention is to find pleasure in all that I have right now - days of nice weather, good food, good people, pets, internet, etc. And to accept whatever comes my way without fear or fight, trusting that something larger than me loves me and is there for me.