Last night I experienced the dark god (Shaitan) who governs this world of duality. I saw that he creates a long shaft of time for us to ascend in each lifetime. We gain knowledge with each ascension, but with each, when you reach the top of the time shaft, it starts again...unless you manage to escape the system.

I dreamed that I was at a function with a lot of people. Food was available and whoever wanted to could volunteer to serve it. There was a rewarding feeling in serving others. But the downside was that toward the end, there was only a little food left for the server. And in my case, I had about enough for a small plate including a piece of bread, but then a little boy came up to the food area crying because he wanted some more bread. I felt compassion and gave my bread to him. Now I didn't have much to eat at all. But that was the duality of serving - the good feeling in giving versus the good feeling in receiving. The people eating also were rewarded because they were eating and being served, but the downside for them was not having the insight and reward of serving.

When I analyzed this dream I realized that at any given time I am either serving or eating. Both have positives and negatives. But in duality, you can't have both at the same time. You can't effectively serve others and feed yourself at the same time. That is the trap of this dual reality. You can't please everyone else and yourself at the same time. (And to get out - you have to serve yourself).

Throughout the last few years I've had many experiences where I have encountered masterful vampires who have taught me a lot. I've come to realize that these masterful vampires are master humans - those that have become skillful in the ropes of duality. They claim to be immortal and no longer reincarnate.

But why are they vampires? What does this symbology mean? Do vampires feed on others thereby taking from others? The answer I can give right now is to say that "the world is a vampire". I have queried about this on many occasions and that is one of the main answers I have received. Animals, humans, trees, plants - everything feeds on something else in this duality (and/or is the food). It is an avenue for experiencing a tangible form or illusion of unity and reuniting here - for one thing to consume another and therefore become, though only temporarily, merged. And again, it is the way it works here - you eat or your serve. If you find the one-sidedness uncomfortable, then it is certainly impetus to find the keys to getting out and off of this merry-go-round.





I have also experienced knowledge of pastlives and the other selves of mine, all part of my soul group. I learned that I was created using modules of other selves (archetypes), putting together characteristics of these to create a new and unique body to be born into, such as this one that I am, Alisa. I believe that my soul group tries each time to create the person who will, with the right set of modules, be the "saviour" who will be able to escape this earth duality, thereby enabling us to become a united honeycomb sphere collective that is free (from duality under Shaitan).





The many lifetimes of learning is the maturation process of each soul group. As the group learns, through lifetimes as a victim, killer, warrior, hero, servant, etc., it comes closer to constructing it's saviour identity, the identity-construct that will understand and overcome the conundrum of duality enabling release from earthly bonds and escape to freedom (with the soul group)...and back to the future of unity beyond the illusion of time.