6 Oct 07

My dream was set in my childhood home. It was a school and there were many students. I was grouped with some girls. We all had a rolled up mattress that was our bed and our special clothes we wore, which reminded me of karate robes.

At first I was told what to do and where to go, but as time went on, no one enforced or checked up on me and I stopped following the structure. Time flew by and I realized I was not attending classes and was busy following my interests and allowing myself lots of recreational time.

It reminded me a lot of high school, and how I wasted a lot of time and didn't attend classes because I figured out all of the loopholes that enabled me to still easily pass. My stepdad approached me in my dream and told me that he felt it was time I traded in my truck for a car. He would paint the car red for me, and all I would have to do is help the men working at the shop to do the welding and refurbishing of it.

In the dream the truck had served me well and was easy to maintain. I didn't care about having a flashy car, I just wanted things to be easy and low maintenance. But I didn't seem to have a lot of choice, or so I felt, and I went along with my stepdad. But as time went on, I hated going to the shop to work on the car. I just wasn't interested and the men there could do it just as quickly without me in the way. But they complained I was not helping and my stepdad found me in the basement of the house and talked to me calmly about it. I said I was glad he had come to talk to me, relieved actually, because I honestly was not interested in the car and was happy to clear the air about it and stop pursuing it. At this he became extremely upset, and behaving like a child that can't get their way began puffing and started to cry and he swiftly left despite my pleading that he stay and talk with me. He ran far away so I could not talk to him anymore. I had thought that all would be well if I was just honest. I was disappointed because he was a parent and behaving irrationally.

Now I felt a strong need to cry. My head felt as if it literally contained a bucket full of tears brimming to the top that desperately needed to be released. I had not asked much of my fellow female students, but I decided I had to ask them now if one of them would allow me a few minutes to talk and cry and release some of this sadness. But each one I approached absolutely did not want to talk to me. They did not want to be exposed to my emotions. I pleaded with one girl who said she would allow me to talk. I followed her as she led me down the hallway to a room where we could be alone. But suddenly, she disappeared through a door and I could not find her. It was as if she vanished.

My tears were brimming and I could find no one to hear me or talk to me. So I was not able to release my bucket of tears.

Hi Alisa, I am offering an interpretation for your dream:

Being in school suggests to me that this is a life lesson.
The vehicles both represent your body and your "way" in life. The one you prefer, being the truck, is sturdier, a "worker", tough, can handle the hard jobs. The car, which is pretty much forced on you, is out of repair, needs lots of work, and you don't even really want it. Is someone telling you to lose weight, or change your body or mind about something? You feel pressure to change something important to you, and you don't want to. Noone will listen and you feel abandoned. You need to talk to someone, in order to get the release the pent up feelings.

I know the interpretation sounds alot like the dream, but esentially that is what it's telling you.

Thanks Festivaljeans! It is quite rewarding and meaningful for me to have your interpretation! Ah, just my kinda person, you are!

I agree about the school being a life lesson. A large percentage of my dreams are set as a school scene no matter where they are, inside, outside, shopping mall, etc.!

Oooh, I hadn't thought about the vehicles representing my body! I believe you are right about that. And I do prefer practicality, but red shiny is good if it is convenient and in working order! But if not, then I will definitely have the truck.

And you are right about losing weight, changing the body (a life long message from society to most of us , but yes, to me for sure). And it is a message that I have then taken on at an early age and pitched back to myself...change, change, be what they want. Something that I am now determined to stamp out and enjoy being myself in whatever form I exist at present.

And further, you are also right that I am trying to change huge important things in my life, and of course I am meeting resistance, lack of understanding, etc., as happens. I am trying to overcome hive-mind-mentality, and to think as consciously as possible and examine why I do everything I do. Not just doing things because my parents or society has told me to. Like do I celebrate a holiday and buy gifts because I want to, or because I was taught to? And do I want to continue? That sort of thing...what do I think, as opposed to what popular culture has dictated during my vulnerable years. It is often challenging to separate it all out and to feel confident in asserting my individual belief over an old popular one.

And I do believe that it was synchronistic that OMJ spoke of a bucket full of emotions in his post. Maybe it was meant to trigger me to post this dream. I don't know precisely, but I do think it was intentional.

So I thank you so much for understanding and interpreting. You would have been the female in my dream to actually listen, I am sure.

I totally agree with you on the rules of society. Goes hand in hand with "normal". Most people really only live on the surface, whereas, we have dove deeper into the experience, learning what we are learning, and not just wondering about the "meaning of life". Most people, hearing what we "see and feel and experience" would think we are crack-heads lol. Most of my friends are my family, and a very few close non-family friends who happen to enjoy paranormal and spiritual conversation. I have found that I need to be careful who I tell what to, but most times when a crowd of people know I can read palms, everyone wants a reading.

As for the weight thing, I'm having a difficult time with my reality there too. I am overweight since the birth of my 3rd child, and I am having the hardest time losing it. I really feel unattractive in my heavy body, even though sometimes I don't think I really look that bad. I wonder though, that when I finally get to my goal, will I really feel any different?

It is frightening to be different than what society has programed us to be, at one time it was totally hot to be heavy lol. However, I need to do what I need to make me and my kids happy, I'm having the time of my life!

I would always listen! I might even offer you a coffee too, and cookies - they have no calories when you chat with friends lol.

Thanks for offering the coffee and the no-cal cookies! And for sharing your experience and understanding.

You are right about it being popular to live on the surface. It is true for me that people (my parents mostly) always used to say to me, "You think too much". I was perplexed as to how I could stop it. I suppose there are times when it would be good for me if I could turn it off for a while. But overall, it is just such a part of me to think deeply that I wouldn't really be me if I didn't.

And I love all forms of divination. I believe there is information all around to be read. I do it myself constantly seeing faces, images, symbols, info in trees, sunlight, books, TV, conversations. Everywhere! And I would love to have my palm read by you. Maybe I can photocopy my hand?

As for weight issues, that's got to have its own topic! I'll have to start one.

Thanks for the awesome input, Festivaljeans!