Last night was very odd and uncomfortable. I lay reading near midnight and I began to doze. As I'd do so, I'd see/sense/hear a fingernail, attached to an unnaturally long finger, tapping on a desk or counter top.

It might be hard to understand, since my experiences are unusual and personal, but I'll try to explain and if you wish, open your mind to just allow, even if it doesn't fully make sense as to how. But as I would hear the tapping, it would wake me back up fully. It reminded me of the few times I've had intense training during the night with a spirit, where they must keep waking me up by giving me small pains somewhere in my body just enough to rouse me back to consciousness. This finger tapping had the same rousing affect.

I saw the finger in my mind's eye. As I said, it was unnaturally long. I could not see much detail other than the black counter top the finger tapped against. And I say "counter top" because I felt that the being for whom the finger belonged was in a "store" or mercantile. I say "mercantile" now because this was an establishment of trade - from Latin (mercant-, mercans), from present participle of mercari meaning "to trade." And because mercantile is an older word than "store" and this establishment was old. I got the feeling of a time-frame of 1700-1800.

The vision consisted only of the finger with a dim light upon it just enough for me to see the outline. The rest of the entity was in the shadow and cut out of the frame when I would "sense" the finger tapping. And the merchantile also seemed rather empty, certainly compared to today's standards of a store.

I've had many vampire experiences over the years. And I deeply believe they are not the product of exposure to vampire themes, and movies, especially the recent massive surge of interest in all things vampire - TV, films, books, etc. But rather, that media is reflecting that which exists in spirit. In fact, I had the feeling that this was confirmed in my semi-conscious night time experience with the vampire, and that vampires are well aware of this connection.

As I said, I was only semi-conscious, so I can only remember fleeting thoughts, visions and a few single words, such as "Count", "Europe", "Aristocracy" (got that a few times), "Sweden" (I think), can't recall much more right now.

At one point as I drifted to sleep, I saw an upside down star inside a circle. It turned into a face that yelled/roared and startled me back to consciousness.

I was very unnerved and uncomfortable, but not necessarily afraid. I usually see the spirit for a moment somewhere in the room when I have night sessions like this, but I did not have the usual visuals near me or in the room upon becoming conscious many times. It has led me to believe that this entity is actually in physical somewhere (probably in Europe) and is quite old. I get the lyrics, "We are the people who rule the world".

As much as I don't like the negative "stuff" out there about NWO conspiracies and lizard entities that are evil and run the world, I can see how they arose. I just cannot be negative about this though. It didn't feel evil, it just felt dark and unsettling. I think it is very possible (or even factual) that energy such as this animates those that heavily influence the world and keep the imbalance of power. BUT, even so, it is a necessary force. Otherwise there is no friction, nothing to overcome, nothing to reach for, no balance to gain. Without darkness, light means nothing and existence is the most severe form of stagnation imaginable.

Conceive of having nothing to do, no challenge, no puzzles to solve. I have had days of lazing about, doing nothing but eating and watching TV, letting dishes pile up just to experience a period of being carefree. And I have felt the relief of balance come back when I actually have to get back to doing something productive, something that requires effort. It would be horrifying to have endless ease. It would become bland, tasteless, and worse.

It doesn't mean that the darkness should win either, and that there should be suffering. It's all about balance, IMO, accepting the darkness and friction, but focusing on the joys and illuminations. I feel sure in saying that we cannot do without darkness, and any attempts to eradicate it, rather than incorporate it, leads to larger and larger discrepancies, fears and imbalance. It reminds me of the overuse of antibiotics and antibacterials in an attempt to eradicate bacteria - and it just creates super bugs. I believe we have to live in harmony with all that "is" rather than deciding which parts can stay and which parts must go.

I feel peace and balance is the heaven we seek, certainly it is for me. Here the waves of life are gentle and small. Flowing is fairly smooth. Light is everywhere apparent and warm, yet the darkness is sitting right beside me.

I scryed the Astronomy Picture of the Day and managed to see many vampires. The photo as a whole has a vampire aura with dark swirls reminiscent of bat wings and dark cloaks.



Orion M78
Whole Image


Cropped to hone in on the faces I began seeing


First face I noticed


Second face peeking from behind first


Second face mirrored


Third face (bat/dragon)


Another bat-like entity (eye-in-mouth as well)


Finally I realized the whole crop was a vampire profile
Such a Fallen Angel look to this (man + beast)
(Orange eye, ear pointed back, large forehead/brain)
So much symbolism!