Last night I experienced the dark god (Shaitan) who governs this world of duality. I saw that he creates a long shaft of time for us to ascend in each lifetime. We gain knowledge with each ascension, but with each, when you reach the top of the time shaft, it starts again...unless you manage to escape the system.

I dreamed that I was at a function with a lot of people. Food was available and whoever wanted to could volunteer to serve it. There was a rewarding feeling in serving others. But the downside was that toward the end, there was only a little food left for the server. And in my case, I had about enough for a small plate including a piece of bread, but then a little boy came up to the food area crying because he wanted some more bread. I felt compassion and gave my bread to him. Now I didn't have much to eat at all. But that was the duality of serving - the good feeling in giving versus the good feeling in receiving. The people eating also were rewarded because they were eating and being served, but the downside for them was not having the insight and reward of serving.

When I analyzed this dream I realized that at any given time I am either serving or eating. Both have positives and negatives. But in duality, you can't have both at the same time. You can't effectively serve others and feed yourself at the same time. That is the trap of this dual reality. You can't please everyone else and yourself at the same time. (And to get out - you have to serve yourself).

Throughout the last few years I've had many experiences where I have encountered masterful vampires who have taught me a lot. I've come to realize that these masterful vampires are master humans - those that have become skillful in the ropes of duality. They claim to be immortal and no longer reincarnate.

But why are they vampires? What does this symbology mean? Do vampires feed on others thereby taking from others? The answer I can give right now is to say that "the world is a vampire". I have queried about this on many occasions and that is one of the main answers I have received. Animals, humans, trees, plants - everything feeds on something else in this duality (and/or is the food). It is an avenue for experiencing a tangible form or illusion of unity and reuniting here - for one thing to consume another and therefore become, though only temporarily, merged. And again, it is the way it works here - you eat or your serve. If you find the one-sidedness uncomfortable, then it is certainly impetus to find the keys to getting out and off of this merry-go-round.





I have also experienced knowledge of pastlives and the other selves of mine, all part of my soul group. I learned that I was created using modules of other selves (archetypes), putting together characteristics of these to create a new and unique body to be born into, such as this one that I am, Alisa. I believe that my soul group tries each time to create the person who will, with the right set of modules, be the "saviour" who will be able to escape this earth duality, thereby enabling us to become a united honeycomb sphere collective that is free (from duality under Shaitan).





The many lifetimes of learning is the maturation process of each soul group. As the group learns, through lifetimes as a victim, killer, warrior, hero, servant, etc., it comes closer to constructing it's saviour identity, the identity-construct that will understand and overcome the conundrum of duality enabling release from earthly bonds and escape to freedom (with the soul group)...and back to the future of unity beyond the illusion of time.

good concept Alisa! I love reading this and it has a synch in it with me today. I was watching Oprah and she had on Shirley Macclaine and the two was talking about How you have to please yourself and to stop being a people pleaser because it inhibits your soul for growth. It's all about self worth and connecting with the divine god that is within, in order to do that you have to let go what is expected of you from others and learn to live accordingly to what your inner self is expected from you to gain in this life time. So right on sister! you always know what you're talking about. I'm so glad to be able to learn under such a powerful goddess

Thanks for the great sync feedback OQ! I both Oprah and Shirley. And I agree with you.

Like with the dream of serving/receiving food...there truly is enough for ALL to eat. There is plenty even. (But how many people were served dishes they didn't like that sat uneaten on their plate?) The earth provides for all her children. But when we begin to sacrifice our own needs in order to help others meet their needs, we severely lose efficiency and some get what they never wanted, and some get more than they need without putting in effort. And this creates imbalance and enhances duality.

Much as it is in the world today where a top tiny percentage in the world have all the wealth (that they could never spend) and a huge percentage of people have very little or none. This is all thanks to money and removing value from life and putting it onto something (a symbol) that can be amassed. If value existed in its original form, for example, an apple (as opposed to $.50/apple), it would be much more difficult for one person to horde all the apples while others went without. And if you couldn't trade apples (as a new form of dollar and yet another value transfer), there would be no real impetus to hoard the apples. And everyone that wanted/needed an apple, could have an apple if they put in the effort to get to a tree and pluck the fruit themselves.

So there is truth in the saying that money is the root of all evil. It certainly is a huge component of imbalance in our world by removing value from life itself and putting it onto a piece of paper.

I am not in favour of gift giving because it further accentuates this problem. If I have $50 and decide to spend it on a gift for someone, no matter what I buy them, chances are, it is not something they would chose for themselves or need. It might be, but not likely because I'm not "them" and I can't possibly know them as well as they know themselves and their own desires. If I gave that person the $50, then they could buy what they wanted for themselves and that would solve this problem of getting them something they don't want.

However, the concept behind gift giving is to supposedly do something for someone, and this isn't really doing anything for them except exchanging dollars from one person to another. And now, if it is their turn to buy me a gift and they give me $50, they are just handing the money back. So why start this whole exchange at all? It just becomes a waste of time and really has no meaning. And the results of monetary gift giving are likely to be a feeling of guilt if you don't give, or of being cheated if you give to someone and they do not reciprocate to you.

Which leads me to another point. Giving money or gifts is harmful anyway. Because it lacks the balance of EARNING. When someone is given something they didn't earn, it removes value. It creates complacency and steals the drive to achieve. When you solve people's problems (by giving them something they want or getting them out of a bind) they are robbed of the growth, strength, learning how-to, and satisfaction that would be gained by finding a way to get what they need on their own. Receiving is only truly appreciated through the balance of the effort required to attain.

For example, if a person steals something small (when they are a child) gets caught, but is bailed out (given pardon) without consequence by a compassionate parent, the human tendency is for the child to believe they can do it again without consequence. The stealing can become larger and larger until finally it does catch up and the penalties are enormous. Suddenly a simple lesson that might have been learned early on, is now huge and very costly.

My mom had a very strong ethic against stealing. She told me when she was 5 y.o. she took a candy bar from a local market. The owner saw her, thought she was cute and didn't want to confront her, but knew her father and so he called him. She said she was so pleased having her free candy bar and as she was walking down the street toward home, her father was marching angrily toward her. All the good feeling drained away. He gave her a stern lecture and made her walk back to the store, return the candy bar, apologize and promise never to take again. And it affected her for the rest of her life that you don't take from others without paying.

On the other hand, I know of a boy who did the same thing - stole candy from a convenience store. The owner called the police and the police brought him home, which was traumatic. But his father felt sorry for him and didn't want to punish him further. Several other thefts occurred over time in which the father could not bring himself to punish the boy. Years later the boy found himself in prison for theft.

Off for now...

Great lessons to learn Alisa! it's so funny how sympathy and guilty intermingle with each other. As the boy and the candy the father felt sympathy for the child which in turn later down in life became a guilty verdict of true theft. Your mother who felt guilty as a child for taking the candy bar didn't get any sympathy from her father or even the store owner because he actually called him. which in turn made her learn a valuable lesson that she passed down to you.

To me giving is like receiving from the soul, but I'm more into "heart felt" gifts like the ones you make. Those are the best because you put all your love and appreciation into the gift and in return you get a greater feeling of sharing your world with somebody else

I see what you mean about sympathy and guilty. Your feedback is great - thank you.

And IMO...

Sympathy is a harmful emotion. If you feel sympathy for someone, you are adding your energy to the concept that the person is a victim. For the person to become stronger, it is helpful to add energy in the other direction (strength).

Feed what you want to grow, starve what you want to go! If you feed the concept of weakness, you nurture weakness. So when the father felt sympathy for the son, he fed the son's weakness by condoning through his actions that it is not offensive or imbalanced to take without earning.

With my mom, her father did not want to nurture the weakness to take without earning. So he nurtured her strength by insisting she take responsibility for her actions. The fact that she didn't steal again was a testament to her understanding that earning what you get is preferable than having to pay later - when you simply "take". There are many ways to look at this and break it down. But I agree with the balance of earning/receiving, whether it is a cultural law or not. Stealing is a separate issue in a way, because not only have you not earned your reward, you are taking someone else's reward. Kind of a double negative.

As for giving... I believe the gift that we truly give is to nurture ourselves so that we are whole and complete. It is at this point that we bear fruit (in the analogy of a tree). To be a tree that has yet to bear fruit, what do we really have to give other than to take a branch from ourselves. And can that dismembered piece of us truly help another? And even if it can, what harm does that do to us and how far back does it set us from reaching fruition?

Yet if we feed and nurture our selves, then we bear fruit, it does not hurt for others to partake of our fruit, in fact, it is satisfying and fulfilling to all.

Your heartfelt gifts and the appreciation that you give to others is positive (I love all the cyber goodies you give me ). I was mainly referring to monetary and commercial gift exchange, or gifts you feel you have to give because you've been conditioned to do so.

yes I know you was referring to that