Thank you very much for that wonderful feedback and validation, Dawn! You always magically pop into my online life validating me with words of wisdom and encouragement at key junctures.

I appreciate your understanding of the "kill your self" message and that it is about letting go of the past "boxes" that confine me. I think spirit uses strange words sometimes that have to be deciphered with care. I have before received verbatim from spirit that I am "the Son of David", which I looked up and saw is another name for Christ. So many people have received this type of message, and I believe it is because it is true, that Christ is within us all, just as we are all pure light and hologram wholes of god. What is tricky is how to accept this knowledge in a balanced way. Famous examples that come to mind of those taking this message singularly are Jim Jones and David Koresh.

Why isn't spirit more clear with its words? Is it a test or exercise? Another example here is also the spirit calling meat-eating "blood money". I recall as I became fully conscious that the message "blood money" was being interpreted across several levels as I brought it through from a more subconscious level where the words and meaning were ever so perfect, but seemed less and less perfect as they surfaced. I knew exactly what was meant by "blood money" the moment I was fully conscious, but the crystal clarity of it began to degrade immediately. The gist was still there, though. It's probably like any spiritual message -- it warps as it passes from God-consciousness through the various levels between, that act like lenses refracting the light within the message, so that it is diffuse and bent by the time reaches this density.

As for becoming a spiritual leader or taking a larger role in sharing my experience, what an amazing thing to suggest (it really touched me and started an avalanche of thoughts, feelings and prayer - thank you ). My immediate concern in contemplating this was that my ego could become inflated! But then I realized the truth, that the bigger problem was really that my ego would have to deflate to allow myself to overcome my fear in speaking openly more often, in person, showing my face, making mistakes, exposing my flaws and my imperfections. How ironic that my ego actually needs reducing first. Anyway, I appreciate that you give me such credit, Dawn. It helps me. You planted a seed (I'll see if it can grow).

I have a bit more to share that relates to the Yogi...next post.