Aww, thanks so much for the feedback OQ! And thanks for reading. I realize I left the story high and dry, but I ran out of steam and had to stop somewhere. I keep worrying that the whole experience will be lost, especially the more time that passes before I spit it out.

Thanks for sharing about your experience with the co-worker and people leaning on you. You are a very strong and compassionate woman.

I think I have a weakness in being unable to say "no", it is true. Yet at the same time, I also feel that it enables me to give everyone a chance. I suppose the point for me is to continue to seek balance in acceptance of "all" and yet not letting myself be bulldozed over.

Let me see if I can resume the story...

We finally managed to get free in the wee hours. I swear my husband could have stayed there forever. He wasn't bothered at all by H and her strange behaviour. He even said she reminded him of me! But its like I needed to hear that and it was also like I could see his point as well. I might be very polite to strangers, but I can definitely be crass and rude around people I'm used to.

That night I had more interesting dreams and spirit lessons. I woke with one word in my mind - VRIL! I knew I had heard it before, but I wasn't sure what it was. I looked it up and found it to be another name for "chi" or life force energy. It seemed so important to me, that word, and I began reading the short book (available on line) called: Vril, The Power of the Coming Race, which had many amazing spiritual syncs in it, not to mention that I felt it was definitely based on reality, but I digress.

The next evening I did not want to go to the pool, but my husband did. He said if I would go he would make sure we did not get hooked into spending time with H, but I just didn't want to chance that, so I stayed in the room and he went. He said he'd be back in 45 minutes. Two hours later he was still not back. I started to doze off, but then I woke with a start. I began to worry about how crazy H might be. I did a crossword puzzle and all of the answers were unsettling words like, "kill" and "violent". It started eating me up that he wasn't back when he knew that I was freaked out by those people.

I became really angry. (I think it was all a spiritual lesson, especially in hindsight.) I decided that despite my reluctance to see those people, I was going to go to their room and see what was going on (and let my husband know I was angry). I marched down to their room and when I entered their patio, the lights were on and they were all talking, etc. When H saw me her eyes lit up and she said, "Baby Girl, I knew you would come!" The weird thing about that is, my key girls (and you know who you are) have all called me that, like it is a special sisterhood password! I was kinda stunned, but my anger was greater and I said, "I don't want to come in, I came here to get my husband!" (And I rarely am so bold to a "stranger".) She said, "Come in and have a drink." And I said, "No!!" She realized I was really angry, and I felt I had to keep the anger up in order to follow through. I got my husband and we went back to our room. I felt bad (like a true grouch), but I also broke a spell that I was under, too. I had feared I could not stand up to her, and now I had and it put me on a more equal ground. Strange as it all sounds...I felt it was all intentional, good, and had brought some equilibrium to the situation.

That night I had an altered-state experience that reminded me of the movie Tron, where I saw levels that reminded me of two checker boards or circuit boards with space between. The lower level was like water, and the upper, was dark. In between was golden light, and H was in this golden light, calling to me excitedly, trying to explain it all to me but it was beyond my full comprehension. The gist of it was that she was telling me to come in between, into the gold light, that this was the "answer" to my spiritual quest (these are my interps in the morning). I knew there was a connection between the light and vril. And in retrospect now, I realize it was the same message as the Yogi gave to me (the following week)...to realize the light (that I am made of light) and to live in the light between the spirit and material world.

All of my fear and disdain for H was gone. If anything, I wanted to see her. It was our last full day at the resort (Thanksgiving Day). We serendipitously (who am I kidding, synchronistically) bumped into her husband in the parking lot at noon. I had been so abrupt the night before that I felt he was a little reserved. I asked if we could come over and see H. He said we could. When we got there she was somewhat subdued (probably hungover). We spent time chatting outside and then some others joined in from the room above. The jokes and witty banter began to fly and everyone was in fits of laughter for hours.

The next morning as we packed to leave, we went down to say goodbye. I felt a sadness knowing I would probably never see her again. She was very normal and subdued again. I felt love for her and I know she did for me as well.

The End.

I might mention that during the hours we spent talking on those nights, she kept looking over me and around me (same thing I do all the time) as she was noting spirit around the grounds. Ha ha. I knew she could see spirit and a couple of times she mentioned little things (like the tones/noises the berries were making in a nearby bush), but she had been teased about it often in the past, I could tell, so she was keeping most of it to herself (if only she realized that I would have been respectful and eager to hear all she knew and could perceive).

P.S. I've learned a lot from writing this out, and I thank you Orb-Queen for encouraging me and giving me feedback. Whenever I write something out on the forum, my journal, or in emails, it allows me to see the details and make more connections, it's like working out math in long-form on scratch paper. The answers make that much more sense.