Thanks for all the feedback and questions.
Spirit does have to have permission to enter "you" and your area. I remember several years ago when I was wondering, after reading all the negative alien abduction experiences, if my spirit guides would protect me if something negative came along...from my journal (June 2007):
...And I thought, But would my guides protect me? Can they protect me or do they interfere as such? And upon this last thought I received telepathically and emphatically, You would protect yourself. All things [of this realm] are consensual. And I knew that to be absolutely true. All experiences or hardships are lessons chosen by the soul/self.
The dark spirits I am referring to from the other night were the bat entities. I am actually a part of them and they of me, and I do love them, but I had become paranoid, as I do on occasion, when I read too much stuff from a negative point of view. And I sometimes get lost when I let other people's thoughts of right/wrong influence me.
I "saw" them with my greater consciousness (where my vision moved from where I lay in bed to outside the window in the backyard where I usually experience the bats). This one I saw most specifically had grey/green skin and charcoal coloured wings. I decided I thought he looked yucky, which is not normally how I choose to interpret. I felt as if I was him for a moment and I felt the sadness and his innocent longing to come in the window and be with me. It makes me feel sad thinking of it, actually, that I chose to be judgemental and block him off.
It coincided with thoughts I had been exploring of light and darkness and the fleeting thought that maybe there should really only be "light" (even though at some level I know better than this). I became confused. One person who can really influence me against my own beliefs is my husband, and he had recently strongly advised me not to reach out to my sister who for some reason has frozen me out (blocked me off like I did the bat). It is my personality to need harmony and want to keep goodwill between myself and people that are meaningful to me. I would not rather have pride than love. But my husband has a lot of sway over me and he values pride. So it made me sad and unsure, and I feel that this in part prompted the dream-like experience. And I make the connection with my sister because she was in the dream that followed the experience.
Spirit is not easily translatable to waking consciousness. When you first come-to after an altered experience, everything might make some sense, certainly before you cross the veil into full consciousness it does. But the veil is there for a reason. And every spirit message is garbled to some degree when it passes through the veil into our physical world, and it is heavily flavoured by the personal lens/perspective of the individual bringing it through and interpreting it.
For me, I sometimes understand the experience and messages better with the passing of time, as the seed coming through the veil ripens in my waking consciousness. Regardless, it is always biased and not as pure as it would be without having crossed the veil. Or so I feel.
As for my son, because he is autistic and language is different with him and difficult for him, he can't describe or explain things to me well. I know he sees spirit because he tells me monsters visit him in the night. I ask if they harm him, and he says no. I ask if they are good or bad, and he says good. But he is still afraid of them. And though it is not 100%, a majority of the time when I have a strong experience, it coincides with him having a rough night of seeing monsters. The other night (of the dark and light spirits) before bed he said, "I'm scared." I asked why. He said, "Because of the monsters." And I said, "Where are they?" And said, "They are here".
The dogs also have reacted on occasion during spirit experiences. They sleep in their kennels at night now so they won't bark and do other crazy antics while I'm trying to sleep. But they have played roles in my spirit experiences when they've been with me on the bed. And sometimes at night if I gaze out the kitchen window to the trees where I see my spirits, and I see the spirits clearly and connect with them, my littlest dog starts barking and remains agitated for a long time. (So I don't do this often). And I used to watch the dogs watch orbs moving around the room, up the walls, etc.
BTW, I also have dry spells. Sometimes they are necessary to let you have a bit of calm again before all the lessons. The word "nuclear" can mean pertaining to a nucleus (which means kernel in Latin). A seed? When words come to me like that, they always mean something for me to note. But like my dream of the dark and light, the first interpretation may not be the right one. Let it ripen and see what it is trying to tell you or sync to you. And notice any other such words, allowing their meaning to bloom. I think it strengthens your conscious connection to your spirit.
