In my continuous push to "awaken", I recently wrote a list of things to keep in mind, for example, that I am comprised entirely of light. I had read this suggestion recently (don't remember where) that if we can realize (believe) we are light, we basically "wake up". Anyway, the other day as I lay down to relax, I allowed the idea that I am comprised of light to settle upon me at which point, a little voice spoke up clearly (from the middle of my brain it seems) and said, "Impossible!" This made me smile (I love hearing from my body and other selves). It gave me a chance to say "I love you," to that part of me because no part of me can be disenfranchised if I am to fully awaken.

I say this above as a prelude to my experience last night.

From my journal...

I had such a huge night of realization! Everything about existence was "crystal" clear to me. I saw myself (in altered consciousness, not a dream) as an entity that crystalizes or freezes in this density and thus is under the illusion of passing time, yet what time "passes" if any, is really a mere second each supposed "lifetime". And it is very clear to my spirit that I am comprised of light and that I am eternal and my spirit is amused at the surprise I feel when for that one second I crystalized in this space.

Each time I die/awaken, which seems like a mere moment, if that, I say with great enthusiasm, determination and delight, "Let me try again! I know I can do it!" And I zoom straight back "in". And what I mean to do is to wake up whilst seemingly crystalized, thus shaking it off, shattering the illusion, and knowing I am light/energy (not crystal, not frozen, not trapped, not in a super slowed state that seems like a passing of time).

What impressed me most was the simplicity of it all, the humour of this little enigma of thinking that by entering this space (earth, or whatever) that we are not pure light energy. Each time I enter it is like I hear a snap cracking/freezing sound. I saw myself moving through space sort of like a comet and then coming to a stop within this pocket. In the pocket I see myself as a winged being (one image of me overlapping another into a single sculpture of the many copies of myself frozen here stopped in my trajectory). I also know that I am part of the "whole" of all of “us” and that I have great determination to wake up here and be light in this space – the light we are all accustomed to being and which we eternally are.

I realized (in this drawn-out altered state throughout the night) that science is a great product of our attempt to understand this density we find ourselves in and to wake up. Synchronicity is our recognition of our spirit seeing what is happening outside of this illusion of what seems a long time, but is not time at all. It is us recognizing that we already know what "is" before it seems to occur because past, present and future is simultaneous outside of the illusion of time where we exist rather cheerfully in an eternal estate. In a way, our spirit hints to us through synchronicity, to wake up and to realize that there is no "time".



Again, amusement was key. I saw myself as an entity (I felt more male) that is very stable, eternal, happy, and very determined. I really wanted to crack the puzzle of this time crystallization. I wanted to do it for myself and the whole, because I knew that it would help the whole. I volunteered. It seemed like a wondrous little challenge. I wanted to do it so much.

If I was Australian I'd probably say, "Crikey"
But I'm not, so I won't.



Mike.

Thank you. And thanks for having the guts to comment at all on a topic such as this.

oh my Alisa what a experience! all I can say is WOW you never cease to amaze me! by the way I miss u! so here is a big hug