I have a long way to go to get my journal entries all posted chronologically (I'm only up to Dec 2007), but wanted to share today's entry now anyway.

I've had so many dreams and visions regarding hercolobus (my preferred name for the black-sun-mother). Last night I experienced the "comet" that precedes her. I saw it symbolized as green Sarris, but is also known as Elenin, which some have said stands for Extinction Level Event Nibiru Is Near.

01.09.11

All night I struggled with the feeling of the thing that is coming. I felt the pressure upon me (of the concept) of its arrival. As I moved into waking consciousness I heard, "It's going to neutralize willful intent." And I saw this symbolized as the breathing of green smoke into a beaker full of darkish liquid which turned it back into clear, clean, neutral water.

All through the night (and boy was it intense), I experienced that which is hurtling toward us as represented by Sarris (from Galaxy Quest). He was angry, or rather, very intent. He was rocketing toward earth.



As I was drifting while watching a movie before bed, I kept seeing vague images of angry/intent alien/monster faces, and I kept hearing varied hostile phrases such as, "I'm gonna rip your head off." I then continued to hear these phrases when I went to bed and had not yet fallen asleep. They were about the intent of this entity/entities to come kick our collective, or planetary ass. It wasn't directed at me specifically.

The female/mother is behind him, following him. She is not angry like him, but nor would she interfere. She is rather neutral and just a bit loving or nurturing. The green reptilian entity/entities preceding her gave off the idea of not only coming to kick our ass and clean our clock, but also to eat us.

At times during the night I also kept hearing and feeling to "draw your blinds". Either because of the possible burning light effect, or to not have to witness what will occur. But probably more about protection from the light.

This morning as I woke and got ready for the day, I began to receive the preamble to the US constitution... “We the people in order to form a more perfect union, establish justice insure domestic tranquillity, provide for the common defence, promote the general welfare and secure the blessings of liberty to ourselves and our posterity...” It made me feel a little emotional as I interpreted this to mean that we are moving toward betterment and that we deserve it (a more perfect union).

As I pondered all of this, I related it to the feelings I had when I left home at 18 years old, and how truly happy I was for the new found, pure freedom. It is strongly imprinted in my memory as the happiest time in my life, and I remember looking into the mirror of my first apartment and saying out loud, “I am so happy. This is the happiest I've ever been!” as if to set in stone that this is what I truly wanted and love, to be free.

I know that with the coming of these entities and the mother will be freedom and neutrality – a thousand golden years of peace and joy (I've been receiving lots of “golden years” messages) – and the opportunity to “become” as we/I break away from this strong, structured family. As we hatch from this confining egg. As we free ourselves from the spider's web.

I also thought about my vision of the entity Saytheth stretching each of our lives out into a long dark torus funnel again and again each time we reached the top so we would start over again (reincarnate - round and round). And how I sometimes feel like I'm being pulled over and over like a glob of taffy into aerated silkiness. But also how much I love these entities that have kept me in this incubatory prison – my father(s). I love them with all my heart and yet, I want freedom. Just like when I left home at 18 where wanting and relishing my freedom didn't mean I ceased to love my parents and be thankful for the structure they gave me that shaped me, but was the whole point of it all.