What a fantastic post, Jaim. I really enjoyed it. You write so well. And thank you for the many complimentary things you said about me. shy

It is possible that I was merely tapping into your concern about the time regarding jimjam444, etc. As you note, these things could have more than one meaning. And I'm sure they do. I feel that it was to do with a deep connection coded between us. Maybe both of us being on this lesson to remove our final fears.

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now I seriously contemplate the ugly and if UGLY even exists


I like this. It seems that there isn't a "thing" that exists that someone doesn't find beautiful. And even if the majority does not agree, one person finding beauty in something makes that thing beautiful, if it must have a label at all, right? A majority of belief doesn't make something a truth, does it.

Thanks for the explanations about death and what you are learning about it. I do believe that the number 4 has a death connection based on the spirit messages I receive. In fact, tetraphobia, a fear of the number 4, is based on fear of death. Avoiding the number 4 is a common superstition in Asian regions such as China, Japan, Korea and Taiwan because in some of these languages, the word for four sounds identical to the word for death. So 4 is skipped (like 13 is the western world) in numbering building floors (elevators), etc.

I believe that death is not the end of anyone's existence, but merely a change of form. And not necessarily an unpleasant change. With the countless books and anecdote about people's near death experiences, it seems as though most people find it a most welcome transition and that it eradicates their fear of death.

A site I came across with incredible stories of the darkness and yet joy of death is Encounters with Death - The Azrael Project. Well worth clicking and having a read.

Thanks again for being so supportive and openminded and for being an ever so quick, efficient absorber of knowledge (such a Gemini). hug