Originally Posted by Alisa
Well, I think I should have worded it better and said that these people I spoke of want nothing to do with anything other than perceived "light" and "goodness".
More wanting.


Originally Posted by Alisa
I should not have said they think they are "light" only. It is that they reject my love of darkness or my lack of wanting only "light". They appear to think and profess that any percentage of darkness is bad. Even to allow a thought that is considered by them (religion) to be dark to enter one's head.
STS path cloaked to be understood to be a "light path"

Originally Posted by Alisa
And on that note, I recall at around age 8, when my philosophical brain spoke up to me and then never shut up, I wondered how you were supposed to stop a thought from entering your brain. It had to enter first before you even knew it was there in order to act against it. And then there was the whole conflict of being told not to think of negative thoughts, which then acted as a magnet to those negative thoughts.
Programming can be heavy during childhood...

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Now I feel more clear, thanks to Ra material, about my path as service-to-self. Ah! And that is why I feel such aversion to service to others. I have to make that 95%. eyebrows
You have a better probability of winning all the worlds lottos at the same time than a successfully sufficient negative polarization in this life time.


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I think even my complaint of people pushing "light" on me is in large part people pushing service to others on me (which I need/want to avoid).
STS reaction to STS activity, like the description in the other thread.


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And is this what you mean by Reality conformation regulatory programming? People trying to push their beliefs about reality in an attempt to get others to conform? Or to get their own experiences to conform? Is it a program?

The reality that they understand and conform to is used encourage or insist others also conform to - regulation of others or their reality/environment which includes others. All as mental programming.


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The scroll was in Latin and was a "welcome" message to me from you. It was signed "Your Brother in Light" and then your name, which I forgot upon full consciousness for the most part.

After this an entity that reminded me of a tree spirit kept telling me that we are "him", we both are.

Cryptic is spirit! reye But I love it. tetris

There does indeed seem to be a connection at some level.