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Originally Posted by Alisa
... I just told myself, Stop it, when I started experiencing it. It seems to be working. It's like I am saying, I hear you, but the answer is "no".


From those words, it sounds more like the negative polarity is being drawn upon for the learning. Observe.


I know what you mean. How I explain it is: I think at a basic level, the negative path (which you helped me see more clearly - thank you) is about denying the emotions. Whereas, the positive path is about acknowledging the emotions. Relinquishing is a great concept, but there is more to it than that for me at this stage. I cannot merely wish my unsuitable reactions to go. I have to set up a boundary and say "no". Maybe if I knew some way to just release it, I could, but I don't.

I think it would be negative to say, I do not have this emotion, I hate this emotion/reaction. It must go! But it is positive to say, I DO have this emotion and reaction. At which point I spend time realizing perhaps why I am having this reaction. And then I say, No, I will not allow this reaction to occur any more because it is not conducive to the whole of me.

As for the definitions, I think ours have a lot in common. Thank you for sharing yours and helping me refurbish mine. Though I wish I had written my heart definition as "Through divine will, the heart is a divinator (compass) for truth." And the same phrase to preface my definition for feelings, which is how I wrote it on my worksheet. Because I feel that I am animated by divinity who drives me and steers me. I need only flow along rather than fight/struggle.

Once when I was sick and fevered, I asked/prayed, "Why am I sick?!" I lay down in a bath of hot water and opened my mind for the answers. I'm going to paste what I received and wrote in my journal because it seems so apt in this discussion and explains where my definitions originated.

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As I lay there shivering more notions and ideas were unfurled for me. I realized in even more detail that I am here to learn mastery of emotions. To act on feeling and will rather than on emotion. Success is to float on top of will (the dragons) as they flow beneath me. Emotion is when I submerge into the dragon, no longer floating. And fear is when I paddle against the dragon. It made such perfect sense to me! But what about desire, I wondered? Is it okay to desire? But then I remembered that to desire is to aim and try to control, and this is not floating and flowing atop "will", it is trying to steer. It is not living in the moment, it is living in the future. It is the opposite of fear which is living in the past, yet both are the same as they are going against the flow. Desire and fear are emotions, and emotions are to be mastered. FEELING is to be followed and this is not the same as emotion.