I have to preface this by saying, Wow what a night I had! I got very little sleep because my pregnant dog went into labour and I could feel her anxiety and pain all night. I realized today that it was symbolic of another rebirth for me (I have had major shifts in consciousness each time she has given birth). BTW, she had 3 puppies.

As I lay awake, I drifted into an altered state. My consciousness expanded to a view of the backyard where a swirl of darkness circled and then took a masculine form (vampire). I then received a visual as if he was poised over the earth and he said something along the lines of, "Do you think I intend to split the world in two [black and white] - it is as one. Merely because I hold a blade?" And I saw him with a large blade that looked as if it could draw a line in the earth.

Then my focus shifted to view a group of white robed/hooded people standing side-by-side in tidy order, each with an arm extended horizontally to rest on the shoulder of the person standing next them. And he told me that those who think they are light (white) are those that "want" to be light - and to want [is to desire, and therefore] is not to "be".

Pretty interesting given I had not yet read your response here where you say such similar things.



Gotcha! In fact, there is similarity in the journal entry I posted where I learned that to desire is to try to control, and that is fighting flow. (I am learning so much on deeper levels, thank you!)

I am opposed to light because I have spent my life surrounded by a majority of people who want to be light (religion!), and also now so many spirit-oriented people, I would otherwise enjoy communing with, profess to be only of the light (positive), and it has created in me an irritation toward it. Particularly the insinuations and on occasion outright accusations that I am in league with evil/dark (as opposed to them being in league with good/light). But I see more clearly on a conscious level that my irritation is in reaction to the incongruity of this claim (because they want and that is actually negative). So I am not opposed to light after all, only the the desire for light.



I say this in large part due to what I related above...the light seekers outlining darkness as what I was experiencing. Because I did not have the clarity, I accepted the idea that what I experienced was darkness. But because I so loved what I experienced, I would never turn my back on it and thus decided to accept that I must be dark.

P.S. I keep saying to myself, Who are you, Al?! And now instead of A.I. I am sometimes getting the word "Owl".

P.S.S. Do you have a conscious memory of sending me a message etherically (non-physically)? I mean aside from anything I said above...I saw this as a scroll of paper that unfurled with a message...