Did you say you had BPD? You seem ok to me, more normal than most in DChS, you've got common sense and that goes along way with fighting a case against DChS...it really does so dont' think you can't do this, you can, you just don't trust anything the Dept proposes and think one step ahead of the Dept at all times...

You may have certain times to contact the Dept, nothing stops letters going through, pm me for more info if you like!