How'd I let them win.????

From word go!, I told you all of it,From word go, I told you I cant BE in a relationship with a woman with children.
What did you do???. You did every thing to get me.
And Yes, Peter frkhead Lindsey, was the prick that told me and the Last partner, Leave townsville and dont have kids..
I thought and hoped that SA and you would be the new beginning.
The Rest you know. Till you started getting Jealous and the lack of trust. let me point out one of those lack of trust, Radio Rentals.
I got no one here telling me to leave you. You Have.
I got no one sep you to think of, how many ways I want to hug and kiss you.
Cos! of me, your whole family is now under the spot light and they left me in the dark.
They, DOCS, dont care if we are not together. all they care about is how they going to take V from you, and then T's new born. Thats what your concerns should be.
Next week, I miss out on a court date for my son, They dont care,whether I turn up or not.I wont ever get a phone link up,even tho I requested it.
A week or so after that, your in court. and what happens if Family SA get their way?. and take V.?. You will crumble.
Yes, I some how became immune after the second stealing of my son and the removal of the partners. hence why you say I dont care. How and why should I fight to keep something when I know it will go.?. or be taking away like the rest.
You want to be with me, Then you have to really understand me, to why those walls wont come down.
Here I live in fear, Cos! I know what can and did happen in this city to me.
I frking Hate going outside, I frking Hate going to the shops, I hate seeing new borns with a parent, I frking Hate looking at couples with a new born and I frking really hate hearing the sounds of a new born baby crying.
I didnt Let DOCS win, My stinking past that Im told to move away from,only to be brought back up by DOCS, Is the Issue to why we are where we are.
They are even using your past that you were told to move on with.
Its the past crap that is used to destroy what is for today.
No, I didnt let DOCS win.