How can you be so awesome!? I am in awe of how much I like you and what you have to say. What you say is food for the soul. The good kind of food that is pleasant and nourishing. (Like probiotics eyebrows).

It's not BRAVE if your not SCARED." That one line in that movie, made me fully understand what BRAVERY truly is!

AWESOME! omgosh

So your mom knew, she picked that battle, knew it was going to be a tough fight, & picked it anyway to teach her soul & ours BRAVERY! That's what I believe anyway. Because on the other side there is no fear, so in order for our souls to know, feel and experience bravery - we have to come here to know, feel & experience fear.

U R ---> [Linked Image] (Smart) Teacher

I learn from U! U R making my mind open. Hey, maybe my Mom really did do a deal with yours to get you to have a chat with me. thinking "Look, she needs a good talking to. She didn't realize how brave I really was. Send Jame, ok?"

I often felt angry at my Mom. I was mad about the co-dependence and some of her choices and stuff. I really just didn't want to feel I needed her... and I thought she wanted me to feel I needed her. So I fought it. And then I judged her, which I was later awakened to.

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Tue 11 Dec 07 (almost 2 months after she died)

I started feeling emotions about Mom yesterday. I was a bit sad.

And then last night I saw the last birthday card Mom sent my son sitting on the kitchen table. It has been floating around as my son likes looking at these things over a period of time. I felt suddenly very sentimental about that card. I could have begun sobbing.

As I had my bath before bed, I saw much movement in the etheric from the corners of the room. And then I saw a white mist move past the bath and alongside the bed in my peripheral vision. I wondered if it was Mom.

When I woke this morning, after a while I remembered I experienced her in the night. I struggled to remember, but it remained vague. I do know that in the experience she contacted me and I realized she really had been waiting for the time to be right to contact me. She was "Mom" and I loved her, but she was also different than her earthly emanation. I wish, wish I could remember the details of the experience, but they were too far into the depths of my night to recall. I have the flavour of them though, and who knows, maybe some details will emerge. Her light was yellow or yellowy orange. I also felt there was a hint of blue, like the sleeve of a blue robe (thinking of Mother Mary). And I realized more clearly as has been the case lately, that she had the right to live her life the way she set it out, and she wanted it the way it was. My life is no more important or righteous than hers was. These lifetimes are lessons and we choose what we wish to experience. And she wanted to experience as she did. That is a very firm fact I felt she was conveying.


There is always the negative side to the positive. As we both know. I actually synchronistically thought today about creating a sub-forum to discuss darkness and dark issues. And it is tempting to create one. Dark things exist and can't be ignored, such as what is probably behind your mother's death, and the feelings of anger I had toward my mom. So should they be separate? I'm apt to say probably not. They should all be mixed in.

One of my favourite spirit message/lesson I received is that I need to integrate my fears as opposed to eradicating them, to embrace that which scares me or seems adverse. By doing so the small fear particles integrate with the larger love particles. Soon the fear is awash and diluted (yet still existent) within the whole of love. And the mass of love is now larger. Growth.

So share the darkness if you wish. It will not take anything away from the love and beauty that already exists. If anything, it will highlight it and make it grow.