I am totally dreading Christmas... Put my tree up today but only did it for my little girls. Personally I'd much rather leave it in it's box in the shed.

But sometimes we have to put our own feelings aside and think of the children's feelings. I'd much rather go to sleep and wake up on New Year's Eve with a drink in my hand.

This will be my third Christmas without my girls. One might think I'd be used to it, but I'm not.

I absolutely hate it... Not to mention that my 8 year old turns 9 this month and I won't see her on her Birthday either.